Salam all. How was your celebration yesterday?(: Hope you all enjoyed yourselves cause I had a good time, hamdan lillah.
But I can't deny that it was rather incomplete though, y'know, as ayah was not around. Malam raya was especially weird. We don't usually go to the mosque so ayah will lead the takbir after Maghrib. But this year brother had to do it. Although for the past few months brother had been imam-ing our prayers, I still feel weird honestly :S
And at night we will usually kecoh-kecoh last minute try baju, try kasut, accessories, isi tempat kuih and stuff. But this year we didn't do all that. We didn't buy baju raya, not even a set. We recycled last year's outfit. And I didn't even buy a pair of shoes. Or a clutch. Or any sort of accessories. *Muka bangga gila please hahaha*
Anyways. The next morning we all went out to perform solat sunat Aidilfitri nearby our house, as usual. But instead of heading straight to grandparents' place after that, we went to Clementi first. Cabbed all the way down there to visit ayah's grave. Everyone warned us not to go visit on the first day of raya cause it will be sesak gila to the max. But we went ahead anyway. Sesak pun sesak la, we don't mind really. I mean, what's the rush? Surprisingly it wasn't sesak at all la please. We were expecting a heavy traffic but the road wasn't jammed. Alhamdulillah! And the weather wasn't bad. Usually if we go around ten plus, serious panas terik setengah mati. But yesterday....cool je. Alhamdulillah!
Went to my paternal's family place after Zohor. It was once again weird, cause grandma wasn't there. She just passed away a week before Ramadhan this year. So everyone is still down. Pity atuk the most :( Two losses in less than a year. In just eight months to be specific. Wife and son. And he's really close to ayah. I wonder how he's coping :(
But then again...life goes on, true? It's not like we have a choice. Death is inevitable. It's just a matter of time. Entah esok entah lusa giliran kita. We just have to keep ourselves prepared. Tapau pahala banyak-banyak. Insya Allah kheir.
Oh yes speaking of which, I've yet to ask forgiveness from you. Yes all of you, especially the ones reading this. I can't afford to biarkan my sins bertambah while my pahala remains stagnant :( So here goes~
Ikhlas dari hati, Nir menyusun sepuluh jari ingin memohon kemaafan andai kata pernah tersilap kata, terkasar bahasa, termengumpat, tersarkastik, terlukakan hati, tercubit, terjeling, ter - okay wait, the list goes on and on. It's endless. Kadang-kadang sengaja, kadang-kadang tak sengaja. Sesungguhnya Nir banyak buat salah dan Nir harap awak semua dapat maafkan dosa-dosa Nir. And no worries, I've forgiven every single one of you. Insya Allah Nir tak simpan apa-apa dendam/marah/geram/sedih/sakit hati/etc. I hope we can have a fresh start after this. Insya Allah. Barakallahu feekum.
Akhir kalam, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Minal 'aidin wal faizin. Kullu 'am wa antum bikhairin(: