Lately I feel like a burden to everyone. For always falling sick, for being too dependent on other people, for letting my 10001 insecurities eat me up alive, or crying at the slightest thing that shouldn't have mattered, for having all these negative thoughts, for feeling too much, thinking too much, fearing too much.
In all honesty, I do wish I'm someone else. Someone better, smarter, prettier, stronger, happier. I don't want to be Nir anymore. The Nir I am now is super messed up.
Yes, I've hit rock bottom.